I'm not sure what other people do when they have a difficult time to fall asleep, for various reasons. As for me, i don't count the white fluffy sheep, I don't get up and drink warm milk, I don't read obscure stuff to depress my active neurons, I don't indulge myself in the calm relaxing stress-relief crap, also called aromatherapy... I took pills once or twice...I drank alcohol several times...although both were under extreme conditions. But more than often, i don't really do anything, just close my eyes, wait... and wait...ing...... peacefully blankly, or not so with occasional toss-and-turns, until sleepbugs strike. Yet one night, while i was doing the same routine, allowing myself doing nothing thinking of nothing, I opened my eyes. I couldn't say exactly why, other than i was curious if I was able to "see" myself falling asleep. Perhaps... in fact the split second I opened my eyes wide and looked up, i started picturing scenes already. I see light in darkness! I see yellowish white halo above my head! and no, I was not dreaming. It wasn't illusional. and yes I was still awake. It was real. There they were, on the slanted wall, shinny stars right above me. One, two, three.... 12 of them. Instinctively, i reached out my hand......
If i stop right here, I'd only remember what a nice surprise it was although people would think that i'm crazy. and if i go on... the boring nature of almost everything lashes out. No mercy in diligently whipping my rebellious mind-adventure... so... maybe i shall not finish up the story by telling that the shiny stars were actually fluorescence paper cut into star-shapes sticking to the wall... oops...
perhaps i will get more of those cute little stars... if beaten enough.
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